So tiS Is WaT I tHoT I m To bE...
Sunday, July 1, 2007
always thot tat i m a fabulous person with fantastic characteristic.
but no,actual fact i m not so.
tink i got attitude problem which pisses people off ba,but there's something inside me tats craving for attention from others,which i tink so.
i wan people to give in to me n tat inturn makes me a selfish person.
i wan people to comfort me when i feel down n out,but i m not in any priority to do tat cos i m not somebody great.
i wan people to cheer me up when i throw tantrums,but i dun get the ''attention'' n inturn makes people have negative thots bout me.
i dun understand why some human beings do get people's attention when they jus give their attitudes n rudeness,n i dun?
i dun get it.
i know i m not in anyone's ''list'' to be the first one to call when they have something to share.
cos wat i've done previously has left some pretty bad impact on them,tats wat i assumed.
yes,i do feel left out sometimes cos i have always thot good frens should jus share everything under the sun.but tats me being naive,if i dun share my secrets with others,why would they do so to share their watever wit me then?
they might find me inmatured n childish so tats why they feel tat there's no point...
i have to really do something to myself.
i felt so lost suddenly.
i dun wan people to have negative thots bout me but there's really nothing i could to do to revive tat?
must i really be a goodie person so everyone will like me?
when i m trying to be humourous,people tend to get the wrong idea.
when i wan to share something,i feel like telling someone but i jus cant tell it out verbally,so i would turn to writing out or jus keeping it to myself...
always thot i m self-independent but m i really so?
i dun know though but at the very least,i have learnt to be responsible from my 5 years experience of being a class chairman.
i may not be the very best,but i've done wat i should have done...
everybody do have their own secrets,i do too.
if Fate dun give wat i want,then i jus have to accept the fact.
there's a question tats evolving n i m gonna jus answer it now.
-no.i dun cling on to it anymore,it may not be now but i need time to forget it for good.i will jus try n try.
maybe i really gotta do some soul-searching for good...
but no,actual fact i m not so.
tink i got attitude problem which pisses people off ba,but there's something inside me tats craving for attention from others,which i tink so.
i wan people to give in to me n tat inturn makes me a selfish person.
i wan people to comfort me when i feel down n out,but i m not in any priority to do tat cos i m not somebody great.
i wan people to cheer me up when i throw tantrums,but i dun get the ''attention'' n inturn makes people have negative thots bout me.
i dun understand why some human beings do get people's attention when they jus give their attitudes n rudeness,n i dun?
i dun get it.
i know i m not in anyone's ''list'' to be the first one to call when they have something to share.
cos wat i've done previously has left some pretty bad impact on them,tats wat i assumed.
yes,i do feel left out sometimes cos i have always thot good frens should jus share everything under the sun.but tats me being naive,if i dun share my secrets with others,why would they do so to share their watever wit me then?
they might find me inmatured n childish so tats why they feel tat there's no point...
i have to really do something to myself.
i felt so lost suddenly.
i dun wan people to have negative thots bout me but there's really nothing i could to do to revive tat?
must i really be a goodie person so everyone will like me?
when i m trying to be humourous,people tend to get the wrong idea.
when i wan to share something,i feel like telling someone but i jus cant tell it out verbally,so i would turn to writing out or jus keeping it to myself...
always thot i m self-independent but m i really so?
i dun know though but at the very least,i have learnt to be responsible from my 5 years experience of being a class chairman.
i may not be the very best,but i've done wat i should have done...
everybody do have their own secrets,i do too.
if Fate dun give wat i want,then i jus have to accept the fact.
there's a question tats evolving n i m gonna jus answer it now.
-no.i dun cling on to it anymore,it may not be now but i need time to forget it for good.i will jus try n try.
maybe i really gotta do some soul-searching for good...
Labels: Myself
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